"Love is when you shed tears and still want him. It's when he ignores you and you still love him. It's when he betrayed you and you still don't want to lose him. It's when he loves another girl yet you're happy for him. In the end, all you do is cry."
"Sometimes, you have to test someone, only to see if he's willing to sacrifice for you - not because you don't trust them. Sometimes, you have to leave someone, to see if they love you enough to come back - not because you have stopped loving them."
I did these. But I should stopped them. I'm a girl and shouldn't do these things. And in the first place, I shouldn't be treated like this.
A person's appearance doesn't counts. What counts is their heart inside of them and their personality. No one wants to be told they're not good enough....
Hi korang. I miss you. ITE mates, LF and ex LF, PF, and everyone lah, be it in the pictures or not.
I MISS EVERYONE ! I MISS I MISS I MISS EVERYONE !
AND I HOPE KORANG MISS ME TOO !
Hello little people out there. It's been awhile sine I did a proper update for my blog. I know you people have been waiting for me to story2 what had happened when I'm away right ? Nahhh, I won't elaborate so much about the past. Anyway, I've gotten my first pay on the 15th, but I've deposited them to my bank account for the debts I owed myself. Haha, yeah funny but hey, this payback thingy is very important to me okay. I have controlled all my temptation of going shopping and buy silly stuffs, but my wishlist is getting longer. Meowwwwww ~
I know, I need to get myself new tops and bottoms, new bras and boxers, new bags and shoes, new flip flops and etc. I even want a new handphone, and still considering on getting myself a digital camera. Wow, that's alot. Sometimes, I wish there is one kind soul who can treat me everything I want. Ya right, dream on Idalicious. But still, I need to clear off my debts first. Hmmmmmmm.
Yes, I miss everyone out there because I haven't been meeting some of you for like 3 weeks or so ? Yeah, I'm sorry people, but I'm busy working and sleeping at home and of course, meeting someone. *wink*
Oh my god, I can't wait for this 23rd ! Sentosa with Ite mates, celebrating Shefa and KhaiApek's belated birthday ! Faizal asked me if I wanted to drink, maybe no, because I want to be a good girl and change. Sorry guys, you won't be seeing my stupid reactions and the food I've vomited out. Hahaha ! Ewwww. Anyway, still not confirmed about the drinking part. I miss those times, but hey, enjoying is not about drinking right ? I can do other things to enjoy myself too. So ya, still considering on that. In addition, I don't drink Chivas. Hmmmm, so how ?
It's 2am already and I should left for bed. I'm working tomorrow in the afternoon and most probably, I will wake up at around 2pm. Hahaha, pig.
Sometimes I run, Sometimes I hide.
Sometime I'm scared of you.
But all I really want is to hold you tight.
So, how about that ?
Very true. Sorry.
Many things had happened this few days. I am busy with work and school, as usual. But now, school is over and my holiday ends on the 3rd January. I thought of working but I miss my girlfriends and friends out there. I know you people are waiting for me right ? Yes, you can ask me out, but must bear with me for a while more, because I'm still working and my schedule is quite tight. I have planned to work 4-5 days in a week during the holidays, in order to collect some money, because I want to be independent. I want to try not asking from Abah money. I want to try to buy my stuffs using my own money. Hehehehe.
If you people noticed, some of my previous posts has missing pictures, because something happened between me and Yan. I'm not going to elaborate more about us, because I don't want to. I took the risk, and hurt myself, not only that, I hurt him and his family too. However, I'm not trying to be heartless for leaving everything behind me, but I want it this way. So, I can't change the time right ? Of course, I still love the date 9th July 2007 because it reminds me of alot of things.
9th July reminds me of the day Yan wants me to be his girlfriend.
9th July reminds me of Yan being devoted to me.
9th July reminds me of Yan dumping all his girl contacts because of me.
9th July reminds me of Yan being caring to me.
9th July reminds me of me and Yan's anniversary.
After all those shits we have gone through, after all those good times we had, I still love 9th July. Why ? Because I learnt to be a responsible person, and not only that, I learn how to trust. I learn alot of things after this date, but things went chaotic after that. I suffer, I cry, I lose my temper. However, I have managed to overcome these, and become stronger. Now, we are friends, but Yan lose trust in me. I am still trying to gain his trust. Now, do you understand how I feel when you did this to me, Yan ? No, I'm not revenging. But, I can't take it anymore.
Okay, I should stop being an emo now. I'm going to be strong.
Oh ya people, stop asking me because I won't entertain this anymore. I'm tired of answering the same questions. So ya, I have made it clear that we are friends now. Still contacting and seeing each other, at work. But wait, some people are disappointed in me because of this. I would like to apologise, but it already happened. Sorry.
Now, YoVille time !
Sorry for the lack of updates. If you read my Plurk, you will know what had happened and what is going to happen. Hais. This is my life now, and I have to bear with it because I asked for it.
Work is fine, and I made alot of friends. They are friendly and like to entertain me okay. Mostly budak kecil, so ya, just layan aje. Rokok pon boleh dapat free. Hehehehe. But I always kene bully dengan Manager(Yas) because I very blur-sotong. Maklumlah, my new job what, still not use to the new environment. Anyway, I was always asked to do closing, because I'm new. Hmmmm, see, kene bully lagi. But but but, I love the people there<3
School is way toooo fine, NOT ! I didn't attend school for 2/3 days, including today. Hopefully, I can catch up with everything by Sunday as I'm going out for a group study with some classmates. Back to school. I am done with IT project yesterday, I am done studying for DMT test, but not for IT test and DMT phase test. Sh*t. Have to slap myself real hard. See, now then I want to study. During secondary school days, study but play alot onlyyyyy. What to do, shouldn't regret because it already happened.
Anyway, Atie bought herself a new phone. Nokia 5230. Damn. I need a new one and I will buy one when I got my second pay, InsyaAllah. So wait, any suggestions ? Nokia 5530, Nokia 5800, Nokia E71 or Nokia E63 ?
I got work later on at 5pm, and yaa, as usual, till closing. And at last, I will be meeting Yan today ! So long we didn't meet seh, got miss me tak Yan ? Hahahahaa. And because of work and school stuffs, I didn't get to meet my girlfriends and boyfriends. Hmmm, will do a proper schedule for work and school next time, so we can spend our time together okay people ? Mwaaaah !
K lahh, need to do something else now. Byebye. Keep taggingg !
'She is 21 years old tau !'Done with Lifeskill project, but my group is still not satsfied because we saw some better-looking boards from the other groups and classmates. Hate it man, but I'm glad we got strong teamwork. In addition, since most of my classmates is not done with their project, my Lifeskill teacher extended the date of submission to next term. Oh my, what a relieve because my group is done with everything and there's no need for us to meet during the holidays. Hurray !
I've taken my test, and miraculously, I got 100% for it. I tapped my own shoulder and congratulate myself. However, I need to thank some of my classmates like Faiznur and Syafiqah for helping me. Hehe, Lovelove ! Now, I need to slap my own butt because I need to revise for my IT test which is on 11th December.GO Ida GO !
Anyway, today is Thursday and lessons are suppose to end at 4pm. My Dmt teacher is so kind to let us off after we did our test. Lovelove again here.
So now, I'm at Yan's house, and he is sitting behin me waiting for I-don't-know-what. I'll be starting work tomorrow. Damn, need to travel to Bukit Timah alone as Yan will not be working. Okay bye now. But wait, Selamat Hari Raya Haji all <3
